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I Really am Just At a Loss

  • Writer: Em
    Em
  • Sep 12, 2019
  • 2 min read

Updated: May 22, 2020

So...

About a year ago, I had my blood work tested because I thought there was a hormonal reason that I wasn't losing weight. The call I got with the results told me that I just needed to lose weight. Tighten up my diet, start working out, and that should clear up all my issues.

Let me review what I've changed in the year since that phone call:

-Sober from alcohol- a year -Caffeine free except for diet coke-  8 months - Only taking the stairs, and walking on both breaks and lunch at work- 8 months - Parking in the far corner of the parking lot at work- 6 months - dieting on and off including Keto/Paleo/ and low Carb- 6 months - Consistently working out/ walking/stretching at home and at the gym- 6 months -meal prep on Sundays- a year

So, you would imagine my surprise today when I went to the gynecologist, and found out I have GAINED another 5 pounds. I explained my frustrations to my doctor, and how I feel like for as much weight as I have to lose, these changes should have moved the scale in the right direction. Maybe not 50 or 100 pounds, but at least less than I was a year ago, definitely not a gain. I mentioned my thyroid, my hormones, etc, and told her I was at a loss as to what more I could do.

So, my doctor pulled my blood work from a year ago, to make sure nothing was off:

Cholesterol: Perfect Blood pressure: exquisite Thyroid: right on target androgens: Great Testosterone: A little high, but probably not the cause of my weight gain.

Everything they tested was healthy. Even factors that are normally borderline (blood pressure and blood sugar) were normal (I know that's progress, but that isn't my point).

So when my partner and I asked what I could do to lose weight, since clearly it isn't a health risk-- she told me instead of working out three times a week, to go five or seven times. And to just do more.

I cannot even describe to you how helpless that made me feel. I have always been full of excuses. But for the last year, I have REALLY been trying. And I'm sorry, but I know I can tighten up a bit, but that isn't going to help me lose 100 pounds. The scale SHOULD be moving. I'm so lost and upset and confused. And I definitely do not think its plausible to workout 7 days a week. I work a full time job with a second job on the side sometimes, and a delivery job. I take dance classes, I have friends and a boyfriend, and I think the gym 3 times a week, along with at home/stretching 1-2 times on top of that should be doing SOMETHING.

I know my gynecologist can only discuss her specialty. I know I probably need a second opinion, probably from a general practitioner, but honestly, right now, I just want answers because I am so fucking frustrated.

I'm going to take measurements, and I'm going to look into a GP to get a more complete view of my health.

Thank you for letting me vent. I appreciate all of your encouragement.

 
 
 

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